weird dreams

i have always suffered from strange, vivid dreams; ever since i was a child. i used to dream of dragons, witches, super-powers, space, being chased, teeth, indiana jones, trains, swords, vampires... everything under the sun.

i am heavily into dream interpretation and believe that every dream reflects your waking mind. every time i have a dream, i flick through my dream interpretation book and see what it reveals about my subconscious. normally it tells me i shouldn't take things to heart... but that's nothing too different from things i already know.

my reoccurring dream consists of my alley way next to my old house and my set of back doors (there are two). i am being chased down the alley (its not like normal dreams where you can't run fast enough - i run fine) it's just, i can't close the back doors in time. whatever it is manages to stop me locking the door. so then i run to the kitchen door and attempt to shut that, but again, it's too late. this is the most frustrating and frightening dreams i have. i have woken up in a cold sweat from these dreams before. they are chilling.

strangely, until now i never thought to look up one particular dream which had me puzzled. i am not one for sleep walking and i very rarely sleep talk. but this one night, i was lying asleep next to my ex-boyfriend when i suddenly start shaking him awake demanding why he was going to kill himself. i was literally shaking him awake. he woke up very, very confused and then i think i must have woken up because i had no recollection of why i'd asked him that. so, like i said... i have just decided to look it up:

To see someone commit suicide in you dream, highlights your concerns for that person. Consider what characteristics and qualities in that person you may be trying to "kill" and annihilate in your own self. Perhaps you hope that you are not like this person and are making attempts to get rid of those traits within your own self.

it seems that my subconscious was a whole step ahead of me and had him figured out before i did. and that's the reason he is my ex.

i really do find the subconscious fascinating, like, how is it your dreams have hidden meanings? i am really regretting not taking psychology for a-level now, it would have been so up my street. i always think about things too much, i think outside the box. i love knowing theres so much more to life than everyday things.

life is short, so live it as best as you can; filled with as much fun as possible.