ever-changing hair.

april 2009

june 2009

august 2009

october 2009

november 2009

december 2009

january 2010

[do not bleach your hair. this is what was left when it fell out]

may 2010

june 2010

i get bored easily.

severe food poisoning

and has been completely delirious for the past two days. about twenty minutes after my last post i collapsed in the bathroom and i quite literally cant remember anything after that. vaguely remember the doctor coming round to examine me, being put into a freezing cold bath and mum taking my temperature every five minutes, which at it's highest was 103.5. not pleasant at all.

i really hope i'm well enough for darwin deez otherwise i will actually cry.

on a lighter note, i have lost half a stone from being ill. hah woo...

a temperature of 102.9

& i feel like poo.

bought darwin deez's album

ahh i cannot wait for thursday ♥

been to see wicked... again

this show is quite possibly the best show i have ever seen. no other show has anything on this one. this is my second visit and i just want to go back again and again. i went with my mum, and three family friends. one of the women has now seen it 8 times, (the eighth being last night). it is one of those shows you can go and see again and again. it's been so hugely successful all over the world. lee mead was fyero and he was absolutely amazing!

her tickets

yayay!!

visited topshop salee!

i wanted this cardi full price and POW it was in the sale!! got some SIZE 8 (!!) jeans, bodycon printed dress and a cute top too.

(i need to stop buying stuff).

oh and i also have a horrible cold. this is probably my 1238012381263 one this year. i hate my immune system, i can't breathe at all :( boo hoo!!

a new camera

isn't it pretty? :)

... HOLY MOLY!!!

YES PLEASE!!!!

NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM

preordered her eclipse tickets

...like officially cannot wait.

& i have like 30 pages left of Breaking Dawn. i dont want it to end :( boooo!

found a website

http://shop.loveheartsandcrosses.co.uk

i want everything!!!

art foundation final major project 2009

alice's trip to wonderland

formspring

everyone's doing it.

hit me up

http://www.formspring.me/hannahlou89

a posh pigeon living in her garden

(he has all his toes).

he is building a penthouse suite in my conifer. with gorgeous south-facing views over ewell village. absolutely spiffing.

Scorpio 17th June 2010

Your ambition and drive to succeed are incredibly strong now. You will go to any lengths to achieve your goals, and you have the energy to do it.

hannah louise crick is officially the happiest girl alive!!!!

:)

(but i do wish this font would be bigger.)

muchos love for this song!

summerrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!

untitled

i am going horse riding on sunday, and i cannot wait :)

bought her tickets

darwin deez @ new slang, kingston. 1st july 2010

&&&

mystery jets @ new slang, kingston. 15th july 2010.

just downloaded their new album... its only for a sneak peak, as i have purchased the album with my ticket (so i'm not being that naughty!) ahh i can't wait for july!! i'm so glad you've returned to the land of the living, mystery jets. it's been a while since i saw you last!

balloon

felt the familiar

i've always been fascinated by the after life; ghosts and ghouls... heaven and hell. after my grandmother died three years ago, i became more and more convinced it really existed.

it all started about a month or two after she passed. i was at work, having a tough day, when i suddenly felt a hand on my back. i automatically turned round to see who it was, but no one was there, yet i still felt the pressure on my back. it was positioned as if someone was standing next to me with their right arm held around me, resting just below my right shoulder blade. i instantly knew who it was, and i felt so deeply comforted. i felt the same thing probably about twice a week, and usually whenever i was feeling upset about something. its like she was telling me she was still there for me, not in body; but in spirit. i smiled every time and said a quiet hello.

today was different. today i could smell her. her familiar musky perfume filled, that i always loved, brought me comfort and contentment. i have been struggling badly with severe depression and have recently been diagnosed with just that. its almost like she realises how much i need her, so she's trying everything within her power to let me know she's there. so call me crazy, call me what you will, but i do believe she's watching over me very carefully and she will always be proud of me and my siblings. she may not be a ghouly "scooby doo white-sheet" ghost but she's a spirit; a lovely, beautiful, caring spirit. i will always love her and thank her for being the greatest grandmother i could have asked for.

i love you grannie

xxxxxxxxxxxxx

some news....

DARWIN DEEZ & MYSTERY JETS PLAYING AT NEW SLANG!!!!

I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT WAIT FOR THIS.

BITE'd

one word....mess.

a love for lookbook.nu

soo cute. a look inspired by the disney film, madeline.

http://lookbook.nu/user/52031-Regine-P

still a bit of emo in her

i cant quite believe i used to be completely in love with sonny moore, the lead singer of from first to last. oh how tastes change... but this band were a huge part of my life for quite some time. i can still listen to this as easily as any of my current tastes. it's like an old favourite movie you havent watched in a while; you still completely love it and feel totally comfortable spending time watching it. in the words of from first to last; note to self i miss you terribly, this is what we call a tragedy. but... unlike sonny moore's passionate request; i dont want you to come back to me.

i am sick of this scene, and i do need a break from this routine. & due to lack of moneys, vacation also seems very far from here. but oh well! life goes on....!!

"Two roads split off from here,
and my life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be.

I wanted to be that breath of fresh air,
When everything smelled so insincere.
But this taste still lingers in my mouth,
Deceit has ways of sticking around.
And I'm ready to disappear,
Vacation seems far, seems far from here."

oh and i dont know why for some reason this font is bigger than all my other posts... its being annoyingly awkward. booo for you blogger!!

moved on

i may still require medicine to keep me sane, and still be having panic attacks at work, but all in all; i have moved on. i dont need you anymore, i am happy. if you can galavant around like nothing matters, then so can i. happy hannah has arrived and is never leaving again. thumbs up for summer and new friends, thumbs up for partying with my beautiful cousin on monday and for completely emerging myself in full time work and being able to buy myself pretty things to cheer myself up. and i do now have lots of pretty things, and i am selling lots of pretty things too so i can buy lots MORE pretty things.

i have exciting things coming up and im not dwelling on the past, or the present. i'm attempting a new found optimism (something im not too good at), ...my life is wicked. i have one person that can drag me down and that person means absolutely nothing to me anymore. i have neither love nor respect for that person. so... what's stopping me!?!! preston in september..... my cousin coming to live with me..... ahhhhh its going to be a siiick couple of months!! and plenty of distractions!!! which is always good.

happy happy happy hannah.

:D yayy.

bought a baaargin!

bought this.......

for half the price of this!

baaaaaaargain!!

also note; american apparel is stupidly expensive.

the end.